Discerning The Loving Heart
How often have you had the experience of connecting with someone, a friend, family member or potential partner who turns out to be an uncaring person? At first you think this is a really good person, and then down the line you discover that the person is self-centered and uncaring. You wonder how you could be so wrong, and what can you do differently next time?
People have different levels of the willingness to feel others feelings. Some people deeply feel others' pain and joy, while other people don’t. Some people can recall caring about others pain and joy from a very young age, while other people remember being concerned mostly with their own feelings and needs.
The people who have chosen the deeper level of compassion are often the ones that become the caretakers, while the less compassionate people become the takers. Caretakers are people who have learned to take responsibility for others feelings and well-being, while takers are people who expect others to take responsibility for their feelings and well-being and often blame others when they don’t take on this responsibility. Taker’s also have a tendency to refuse to apologise when they have done something abusive or underhanded, spread malicious lies when things don’t go their way and fail to acknowledge their wrong doing in relationships.
If you are a compassionate person who easily feels other’s feelings, you might find yourself drawn to people who are in pain. Your compassionate heart naturally wants to help those people who are in pain, not only out of caring, but also because their pain is painful to you. The problem is that this person might not care about your feelings as much as you care about theirs.
So, how do you discern who has a loving, caring and compassionate heart? The first step is to focus on developing as much compassion for your own feelings as you have for others. Often, very caring people leave themselves out, caring about others far more than they care about themselves. This leaves them vulnerable to becoming the caretaker for someone who just wants someone else to take care of them, and then gets angry when you don’t do it right. If you develop compassion for yourself, you will start to feel much more quickly when someone is not really caring about you. If you are just focused on another’s feelings, you won't notice what you feel, and it is your own feelings that allow you to discern caring from a lack of caring.
The next step is to understand and accept that, no matter how caring you are to others, you have no control over how caring others are with you. You can't make someone care, and the more you take care of another’s feelings and well-being while ignoring your own, the less caring the other will be. The other person becomes a mirror for your lack of caring about yourself. Personally, I wasted years of my life trying to repair relationships with family members and friends who were abusive because I held the view that blood should be thicker than water and problems should be viewed as an opportunity to build more intimacy in relationships. No matter what I did, the emotional abuse continued alongside fraud, theft, and defamation. It is important to understand that not all relationships should be healed and, in some circumstances, relationships will indeed teach you the importance of standing alone.
The more you learn to take full, 100% responsibility for your own feelings, the more another’s lack of caring will be intolerable to you. The more you can stay tuned into yourself and trust your own perceptions, the quicker you will discern a lack of caring in others. The more you accept your lack of control over getting others to be caring, the quicker you will let go of people who are intent on getting caring but not much concerned with giving it.
It really doesn’t take long to discern the loving heart once you have compassion for yourself, trust your perceptions, and accept your lack of control over others. People betray their intention to either give love or to get it, or to give to get, with everything they say and do. With practice, you can learn to discern the loving heart very early in a relationship. If you want to stop recreating the same relationships over and over, then develop your power of discernment. Don’t let the behaviour of others reduce your capacity to love or harden your heart. Accept the relationships that are abusive or should not be fixed for what they are and refuse to let the pain they have caused you impact your ability to build meaningful and loving connections. Hurt people hurt people, healed people light the way for others. Be the latter, not the former.
